Someone Once Told me.....

After a while you learn...

The subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't always mean security and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child and you learn, to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers and you learn that you really can endure you really are strong you really do have worth and you learn and you learn with every goodbye, you learn.....


(This is not written by me I just love this, Someone sent it to me when I really needed it and I kept it, just incase I ever needed it again. Today I feel like someone else can use it, so im sharing)

Pain is a part of life and even though sometimes it feels like the worst part, It can be the most amazing part too. We learn so much about ourselves thru heartache and the more we learn the more growth is possible. Im so much stronger today than I was when I needed these words.... This too will pass, just make sure you take from it what you need and use it to grow.

I love all my followers ........ Big hugs and Smooches.

The Tattoo

I feel you deep inside of me.
Deeper than my skin,
Deeper than my body
You flow thru my veins
You're embedded in my soul
Everlasting
An unforgettable impression
Incredible,
I love you
So much it hurts
But the pain is pleasurable
So much it works
Our souls connect
My flesh submits
You give substance to everlasting.
You put the sun and stars at arms reach
And nothing seem impossible
You give me hope,
I give blood,
I give body
I give love
I give forever
You make it possible
For love to exist
I give flesh
For your name to relish

Those Damn Oils....

I smelled you the other day,
Walked thru a crowd of people

And smelled the oils you used to wear.
I looked around,
but you werent there.
I went to the stand and brought the oils just to burn in the house.
I just needed that feeling your presense brings.
But without your essence,
The oils did nothing for me.
Every now and again the universe tortures me with a breeze,
And I smell you briefly.
I used to love that scent,
Now I hate that shit.

Lips I cant Forget...

Lips like pillows,
Soft and send me Dreaming
Lips so soft, I dream about them.
Send me yearning,
Moaning.
Lips like heaven,
I die to go to them.
Lips like honey,
Sweet as the words from your mouth
Lips that make me humble,
Make those words come out my mouth.
Lips that speak and make my lips wet.
Lips I just cant forget.

Purify Me

Rain down on me,

Baptise me in your holy waters.

Wash away my sins with your purity.

They say you are what you eat,

Well I want to be an Angel.

So I burry my face deep between one,

And taste Heaven.

Taste rain and dew drops,

taste babys breath, until i see stars.

I want to see stars.

Go to other planets, another universe.

I travel out of this world into your abyss,

And find Bliss there.

Rain down on me,

Baptise me in your holy waters.

Wash away my sins,

and make me pure again.

How could this be a sin when it feels so right?

I feel like I've died and you just gave me life.

Rain down on me,

Baptise me in your holy waters.

If this is a Sin, make me pure again.

Rain down till puddles form,

Until pools form,

Until I can swim in it,

And Baptize me in your Holy Waters.

HeartBreaker

Heavy are the shoulders of the one who carries the emotions of others...

They used to say I was gonna be a heartbreaker for as long as I can remember and sometimes I wonder if they subliminally hypnotized me into being just that....
She said I should have come with a caution sign:
Caution she is her father’s daughter
Caution: she would rather push you away than feel vulnerable
Caution: when things get too emotional she shuts down completely- do not take this as she doesn't care - but as she just doesn't understand and would rather focus on something she can control
Caution: she moves on quickly, not because it’s easy but because it’s easier
Caution: Easy to fall in love with, but falling in love with her will leave scars.
Caution: she will love you with all of her heart the best way she knows how.... Doesn't necessarily mean you will ever fully understand or it will ever be enough for you.
We are taught by our families and relationships with people how to love.... How do you learn to be emotional if that's not the way you were brought up? My family spent so much time making sure I was tough enough for this world that they didn't take time to teach me how to be vulnerable or compromising. Suck it up, don't wear your heart on your sleeve, these people will eat you up if you let them, don't be a sucker, trust no one, protect yourself, never give or let anyone borrow more than you can afford to lose........
They used to call me a heart breaker and somehow I feel like they programmed me to be just that.

She said I should have come with a caution sign...... And I told her..... Never give anyone more than you can afford to lose.

Saddest Girl I've Ever Seen.......

She's the saddest girl I've ever seen
And I can't help but stare at her
I wonder if it’s a man or a woman that broke her heart?
Did someone die, or betray her?
Where the scars on her arms and face came from?
Why she's not carrying anything?
Everyone carries something? Why is it so strange to me that she doesn't have a pocketbook or book bag, a shopping bag or anything in her hand at all. She looks like she has a lot of emotional baggage maybe that's enough for her to carry right now.
She's beautiful... But something’s keeping her from being pretty
She looks tough, like she don't take shit from no one, but weakened like she just lets someone shit on her anyway.
I want to hug her, cuz she looks like she needs one
I wonder if she has children?
Where is she going?
Where is she coming from?
Where has she been?
Where does she want to go?
I see hope in her eyes behind the despair. I can tell she's still fighting. I want to say something enlightening to her so she doesn't stop fighting. But I think she might take it the wrong way, or look at me like bitch mind your business. I can tell she attracts people to her but she looks so lonely sitting on the seat by herself
I want to ask her about her story but she looks like she doesn't have the time or energy to explain. She sees me staring and just looks the other way.
I can't take my eyes off of her and when the train reaches her stop she gets up and I catch her eye again I simply say "long day huh" and she sighs and replies. "Yeah another one"